Hi, how are you? I am sick again – I caught my friend’s cold just days after recovering from my last one. Which is fine, shit happens. But, now I feel horribly guilty that I am sick still. Like it is all my fault. I’m just trying my best to ignore my cold as much as possible. it’s only hard at night when I can’t breathe at all, despite the Nyquil.

Merry Christmas Eve. I am working. From home, though. I am only doing a partial day – just one project that has to be done today. I was told I might as well be working, because otherwise I’d just be “sitting on my ass.” Actually, I’d love to clean the house, or work on painting the front room, as I have been for the last few days. Or even work on my portrait of the dogs, update my website, or practice the drums. But, I was told I wouldn’t, and made to feel like I really don’t ever clean or do anything productive at all. I must just be taking things too personally due to lack of sleep. I let things get to me.

So, we’re not doing anything for Christmas this year. I have a little table-top tree up, but that is it. We’ve given each other a few gifts, but we haven’t been wrapping them or saving them for Christmas. It will just be another day – though, one that I have off. I work the rest of the week. Dan has off today through next year.

I should get my work over with, I guess. None of my coworkers are online. I’m not sure if any of them are working today.