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i just looked at my birthday wishlist and it says that 15 things have been bought! wow! thank you so much to anyone who has sent anything! i still need to stop by my p.o. box this week… looks like i may need to go twice. this is such a surprise! normally i get some gifties from dan, something from my dad and brother, and maybe $20 from my grandparents. and i tried having parties when i was little, but since i have my birthday in the dead middle of summer, everyone was on vacation. only 2 or 3 girls would show up, and they were usually only people i had met in summer camp. so i gave up on birthday parties after age 7. this year i am actually haveing one (which you can watch online on saturday night suposing bell satanic gets their thumbs out of their asses). i keep getting nervous that no one will show up. so far about 6 people have said they are going. i’m not sure how i will react when people give me birthday presents – i am not used to that. i only ever get gifties at christmas when i can say “thank you! and here is a giftie for you too!”. so i made up 24 goodies bags filled with silly toys to give out to my guests. i doubt there will be more people than that, but just in case, i will prolly buy some candies to make some backup bags. and i want to make handmade thank you cards for all you that that have sent me something. it really means a lot to me. so far my birthday week has been very shitty and i have been mostly cut off from all my online loved ones. so it has made me feel very special to know that people are thinking of me even when my silly face isn’t refreshing on their screen every 30 seconds….