Please skip this post if you are sick of my negativity. I am trying to get to a more positive place, but it is going to take time and a lot of distraction.

This has really been one of the worst weeks of my life. I wish I could enjoy our move to a wonderful new home more, but events beyond my control keep overshadowing everything. Now, on top of it all, I am ill and feeling pretty messed up from that and the medicine I am on. Honestly, I don’t feel that bad physically – my doctor has been great these past couple of days, but added to everything else, it’s almost more than I can handle. I know I can handle this. I know I have to handle this.

It is past time for my 9 am antibiotic but that means I have to get out of bed and eat something. I’m still building up my motivation. My other pill made my face swell a bit. It is very slight in my eyelids and cheeks – Danny said he couldn’t see it when I woke him up at 8 am. So I will take my next dose at noon and just keep a very close watch on things. My doctor is on call over Thanksgiving, but I don’t want to call her on the holiday until I know there is a real concern.

Thanksgiving. Last night, Danny asked me if I wanted him to get me anything besides soup at the store. He has been taking such good care of me. I asked for something to eat for Thanksgiving. Of course I don’t eat turkey, but I am quite fond of mashed potatoes and cranberry sauce. Danny replied, “Thankgiving – I’m not feeling very thankful.” I told him I am thankful we are alive and have each other. I think it takes a pretty major loss in you life to strip you down so far that you cling to the very basics… Life. Love.

Thinking more on it, of course there are many things I am thinkful for. Our new house. My family. Danny’s family. My pets. Second chances. Good friends. A future full of possibilities.

Time for that antibiotic.