stephanie is: 
ehn…
so a friend posed some interview questions to me and suggested i share my answers here if i feel inclined to. since one of them gives a good idea of how i feel about my site and the direction i want to take it, i will at least a few. if you have questions you’d like to ask me, feel free to email them to me.
How have you matured along with Stvlive? What are some crucial differences between you when the site first started up and now?
Yes. I probably couldn’t think of all the ways in just one moment… But since I started the site, so many years have passed, and I’ve gone from being a college student clubbing twice a week, to an married adult with a mortgage and “kids”.
I think the biggest change (and one I realized quite recently when I stopped being able to use the online payment service) is that I no longer feel the need to have as many people as possible watching or members of the site. I’m not sure when it happened… It is just so freeing and cleansing to finally just want to share my site – no subconscious desire to be popular or liked. I simply share my life on my site, and those who are interested in contributing to it’s maintenance can join. I feel like I am now in an adjustment period where I need to wrap my mind around that idea and make all the physical site changes necessary to point the site in the right direction. I am excited on a certain level… I feel like once everything is the way I’d like it to be, I will get a chance to see if my creativity (through new photos and ideas) is any different without that hidden “need to please”. I think it will be an interesting journey.
How would you respond to those who might claim that Stvlive is about your exerting control over a world in which you have very little? After all, when someone pisses you off in chat, you can boot them. If you don’t like the bags under your eyes, you can photoshop them out.. and it certainly garners you attention of all sorts (good and bad).
Well, control certainly comes into play – but not in a power-trip kind of way. I like being open and sharing my life with others, but for my comfort and safety, I need to be able to control how much access people have to it all.
Stvlive has become an intergral part of your life but so is Danny, and one can’t help but notice how little a role Danny plays in the overall site make-up. It doesn’t state what D’s p.o.v is of the whole thing. Not even in your F.A.Q. I recall one time you said in brief that he didn’t like the posing.. Has he ever asked you point blank to stop? Do you ever feel like you’re imposing on him in keeping this whole thing going?
He doesn’t like my site and he’d be happy if I stopped it. But he would never ask – It is my pet project and he respects that. Out of respect to him I have limits on how much I intrude into our privacy.
Although you’ve clearly stated that you have no intentions of posing nude (online), have you ever drawn/painted yourself as such?
I’ve never drawn myself nude (though I’ve drawn plenty of other people)…. Perhaps that is something I should try. I do have “nudes” online, but never showing any more than butt. My family wouldn’t be comfortable with more, and I don’t want my important bits falling into the wrong hands. That sounds kinda bad…
okay, here is another “meme-ish” thing i’d like to try. make a request of something you’d like me to take a photo of. no nudity, and i reserve the right to set my own comfort limits if your request is along those lines. i mean more like daily life photo request. like “a picture of the first dog you see at work today” or ” a picture of your desk” or ” a photo os something green and furry”… or is this something that wouldn’t be interesting to anyone but me? if you ARE interested, post your requests in a comment.
i needto head to bed – work tomorrow. i hope you all get your sleep on and wake up refreshed.