stephanie is: 
better…
before anything else, i have to say thank you for all the kind words you all have written to me since brina died. at first, reading them made me start crying again, but they weren’t any less appreciated. i’ve gotten to the point where i can talk about her and not cry… i only loose it when it catches me off guard. like when i saw her laying at the top of the steps out the the corner of my eye… i cried when i realized it was just a toy and she was not coming back.
yesterday while running errands we stoped at both a dog adoption fair and the county shelter. i did not get another cat – i just wanted to hug all the animals. we will get another if one suits us, but we won’t rush to resuce the first one we see.
here were two sweet baby chows at the dog fair. the fair was run by the same people who rescued china. i held a little black kitten with white boots at the shelter. we didn’t really click though. i’m sure she’ll be gone within a week, so she’ll have no problems.
the past two night simba has cried… it sounds so sad, long pitiful mews. he has been spending much more time laying on my chair or lap, or under danny’s feet. i wonder how much cats instictively know about death. he got to have a minute with bri as she was dying because i set her inside their gated room (it is the dog-free zone for cat and bunny sanity). he had seen how bad off she was and looked very worried. and then he never ssaw her again. do you think he knows? wether he does or not, he is acting very lonely. he has never been an only cat in his life. we may stop by an spca cat adoption today. if it is meant to be i’ll know. i don’t take adopting animals lightly. they are like kids to us. i wouldn’t just pop a kid out on a whim.
my keyboard is beyond dusty. i wonder how i should clean it…
danny scolded me yesterday while i was getting ready to shower. i lost a couple pounds this week and i guess it is showing in my ribs. i need to rememeber to eat… i have had so much else on my mind.
i think i only have one more part of my gallery script to write for the updated members’ section. after that it is all edits and adding the 19,000 pictures to it. that part will be slow going, so i may start to link sections live as i finish them. that would mean you would be able to exprole the whole thing as it is linked. so, don’t freak out if you suddenly see a low total pictures number – they will all be in the new gallery as soon as i can get them there. i am just taking my time so i can get keywords in for every one.