stephanie is: 
glurk…
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i just threw up for the first time since i was a little girl. i remember hating throwing up so i just stopped. if i got the stomach flu it came out the right end after that.
lately, with my period i’ve had queasiness instead of cramps. seemed like an upgrade to me. i can deal with queasiness easier than sharp pains.
for the past 2 weeks i have been smelling things very very strongly. it is amazing how many people stink when your nose works well. i even had to go buy new deoderant cause i wanted a stronger one for myself. i guess my perscription nose spray is really working and i will have to get used to smelling things again. as it is my nose has been shutting down because everything smells so strong.
so combine that with quesiness… i was laying down reading – hoping it would pass… but the smell of my shampoo plus the smell of didi when she came and cuddled with me. ugh. i shot upright, went to the bathroom, tied back my hair, lifted the toilet seat… maybe instinct told me to do all that. i realized that it meant i was going to throw up and i paniced wonder what i could do to stop it. but i couldn’t. it was not fun but no food came out. i won’t elaborate more. didi was by my side, half concerned, half interested in the barf (she has a major barf fetish)
i started crying and shaking like a little kid. fair enough i guess – it has been so long since i threw up i didn’t know what it was like anymore. i rinsed with mouthwash and came downstairs for some cold clear soda. i am afraid to lay down now. and i am afraid to eat though it may help me. i don’t want to find out what would happen if i threw up with food in my tummy.
bleh.
yesterday was not fun. 2.5 hours of waiting in the car for my car inspection, then the rest of the day feeling quesy.